Lamar Odom gets real on cheating on Khloe Kardashian: ‘I put her through s**t’

Lamar Odom‘s relationship with Khloe Kardashian during and after their four-year marriage was incredibly complicated.

The relationship was smooth sailing for the first few years after the couple said “I do” in September 2009. The two got along well and would often star alongside one another in several commercials and their own reality TV series, including Khloe & Lamar. However, somewhere along the way, things fell apart, especially when Odom not only openly struggled with substance abuse but was also caught cheating on the Keeping Up With the Kardashians star in 2014.

Today, the celebrities have gone their separate ways and had their fair share of romances and heartbreaks with other people. Khloe Kardashian has since moved on from her previous marriage. But for Lamar Odom, well, it seems that the former NBA athlete still holds many regrets for his past behavior.

How Lamar Odom feels about cheating on Khloe Kardashian

People reports that during a sneak peek look at Lamar Odom’s new tell-all special, TMZ Presents: Lamar Odom: Sex, Drugs, & Kardashians, Odom revealed how the world truly doesn’t understand how much he put Khloe Kardashian through during their marriage.

“Behind the scenes, I put her through s**t,” Odom expressed. “Like, s**t  that y’all don’t know. The s**t y’all know, what y’all think y’all know, it’s crazy. But the stories that y’all don’t know is, like, really crazy. I’d have these random women coming out. Some of them all came out at one time.”

Odom continued to say that he was in “full-blown relationships” with other women during his marriage. During this time, he had little to no remorse about his infidelity, but now, he couldn’t be any more “embarrassed” by his actions.

“I’m, like, laughing out of embarrassment right now,” Odom stated. “Like, how you thought you was going to get away with that one?”

See the snippet of the upcoming special below.

Though we are recently finding out about all the details regarding Odom’s cheating, Kardashian, of course, knows about it all. Even so, the Good American co-founder has since forgiven the Celebrity Big Brother star and is in fairly good graces with the star to this very day. But not to the point of taking him back.

“Lamar broke down and apologized deeply to her,” Daily Mail UK reported in 2013. “He got clean and that’s why she started talking to him again. She was willing to give him a second chance. Khloe’s not past his affairs. This is what Khloe is mainly embarrassed about. She hates the drugs, but the cheating and the lying are harder.”

Khloe Kardashian has yet to speak out about Lamar Odom’s recent apologies and confessions. If and when she does, we’ll be sure to let you know. Until then, be sure to catch TMZ Presents: Lamar Odom: Sex, Drugs & Kardashians streaming now on Hulu.